Digging a well in a Valley

"Relapse, collapse,

Fall back into the realm of depression

The place of trickling tears,

And fanatic fears,

Which do not leave.

Disappear. When you turn on the light.

Remain. Day and night.

Desperation

Frustration

at self.

Inadequate

Failing

Hopeless

Seemingly Insolvable

Perpetually plummeting

Constant crumbling

Eternally eroding

Forever falling

Lastingly lost

Untill..."

Recently I've found myself stuck at the bottom of a deep valley, that hypothetical valley which is used to describe the unbearable place of depression, loneliness, and rejection. The place where you feel you are so alone, that no one feels the same way you do, the place where you label yourself as "unworthy" "hopeless" "unlovable" and "useless". 

It was while in a valley and feeling the way the poem describes i heard a talk on Genesis 26:12-22 which was when i discovered the advantage of "valleys"

The message was on the importance of wells, physically and prophetically. In battles, the enemy could destroy an army if they managed to pollute or stop up a water supply. Water is a means of life! Without it our physical bodies just cannot survive. So it was common for the enemy to fill a well with dirt and debris in an attempt to kill. This is what the Philistines did to Abraham's wells before his son Isaac re dug them.

We have a well in our own souls, and from this well, living water pours forth, the water Jesus promised to give-that which would cause us never to thirst again! However the enemy, Satan, likes to try and fill up these wells with garbage, the dirt and debris of this world, poisoning our life supply in a spiritual attack, an attempt to kill us.

The yucky stuff he tries to block our wells with may look appealing-worldly preoccupations which please and satisfy us for a while, distract us temporarily, wealth, fame,success, good jobs, lots of friends...

Or Satan may try and block the living water flowing out of our wells by throwing on the trash of the past. Reminding us of our inadequacies and failings, causing our eyes to be set on what we are not, instead of what He, Jesus, IS!!! Sometimes we do not even try and rid our wells of this rubbish. The past, the messed up stuff thats happened, the hurt we carry with us, the disappointments and heartbreaks we have all experienced which can keep us from running freely without chains and baggage the race set before us, can be comforting!

I dont know why, but we can cling to these things and be unwilling to let them go. Scared of life without it. However, with it, our wells our clogged up, and our life supply cut off.

Personally I want my well to be flowing with Gods living water, to be full with the Holy spirit. I want God to fill me, but to fill something it must first be empty. You cannot fill what is already full.

I realised my well was full of debris and dirt, and i wanted to start re digging my well, clearing it out of the junk, pressing in until i got a breakthrough. A breakthrough of new fresh water into my dry and barren spirit.

To get to water you must dig down, and dig down deep into the ground, of course if you dig a well in a valley you have an advantage as your are already in a low place!

I realised the advantage of being in a low place spiritually and emotionally. It created in me a real desperateness for God. All else had failed me and i was stuck, i could go no further and turning to God was my only option. Sometimes we need to be in that valley place, where, completely burnt out we realise we dont and cant control our lives,and submit in helplessness and thankfulness to Jesus. In this valley we are already at a low point, often "worldly preoccupation" has already been stripped away, therefore when we start to "dig our wells" and unblock them, we dont have as far to dig as we would if we were else where, the water level is near!